On the outside, it may seem that I have it all. I am fortunate enough to not have to work full time, I am able to pick up and move out of my townhome and move into an area where I will be able to have lots of new and interesting experiences. Most of all, I get to make choices in my life that are always backed by those I love.
However, all my good fortune comes at a price. It's almost like the opposite of what I wrote about is true. I may not have to work full time, but that comes at the price of not having what I would characterize as a successful career. I have always viewed my career as important to me, and have always been very ambitious. I feel like something is missing without my work to help define who I am. True, there are more things in life than having a career, but for as long as I can remember, I have wanted to work with and help others in some positive way.
Yes, I am able to move and start fresh with Doug, which is something I am very grateful for. But I left behind a life I knew and lived, mostly on my own, for the last 15 years. I am equally excited and terrified.
I suppose my worries in life are few, and for that I am very fortunate. I guess my point is, that no matter how happy or successful one may seem on the outside, might mean nothing on the inside.
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