Let me start by saying: I am not a fan of people who play The Victim role. I also see no value in beating myself up over my decisions, long term or daily.
So as I sit here, thinking of what to do today (I have free time, lots of it), I realize how lazy I have become. That's the problem with not working. You have SO much time, that you squander it away on doing lots of nothing.
I should go to the gym. I know that.
I should take advantage of my location, and go into the city each day. I know that too. Yet somehow, I constrain myself to staying home. Blame it on the heat, being lazy, or desire to save money for the weekends, but I actually enjoy staying home.
I do know, however, that I must get my ass in gear.
As soon as the summer ends, life will resume some sense of normalcy. I'm going to give myself the next two weeks to "live it up", and then will, with the start of the fall, create a new start for myself.
While a job would help this current situation, I have to make it happen on my own, which is probably the hardest thing to do.
I will look into volunteering, and will create a schedule for myself, which will involve less happy hours, and more of something productive.
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